wizlaqueefa:

omg

Lol!!! Band Awards Night… Hahaha

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cumfort:

their bodies urg

They’re beautiful.

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You all show me little or no appreciation. You pay no attention to me as if I were an old comic. You all take me for granted because you know I’m not one to give up and walk away. You all think I’ll always be here. But what if I’m tired? What if I feel like giving up because at my struggles and when I need you guys the most, your not there? You’re not even there when I simply need company. I’m not Miss independent, okay? We’re all still young. Cut me some slack. I need my family and friends.
I previewed Hell today.. My family is falling apart.. Again.
You guys wouldn’t understand that because all four of you have one, complete family.
I don’t. That’s why it’s so important that I have you guys.

(via gifnation)

Vanden Wind Ensemble. Encinal Band Review. ‘12.

Lol! I’d never use a toilet ever again.. Bahahahahaaa

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You make me go crazy. I love you and I hate you. It’s all the same! Today’s Mother’s day but you crossed my mind every couple hours. I know I should really hate you but I just can’t. I wanna show people that you’re really not a bad person but you aren’t helping. You’re showing them that they’re right to judge. The ugly monster they see is growling! Ugh. This is not the way you should be remembered. What’s your problem, dude?! Honestly.. I’m really.. I’m ashamed of you now. Maybe you don’t care but I do. Stop being a fool! You’ve already proved you’re smart. I really hope you read this. Even though it’s totally indirect it’s just so important. After what’s gone on, I don’t think I’ll look at you the same ever again. I hope you learn from this. Please, please, pleeeease take care of yourself and your name. Smh.

iMac. Jordan sticker. Lol

I think so. Well at least that’s what I’ve been telling myself since forever.
I had a wonderful time tonight. Nothing like a a huge party with the family. The only downer today.. I lost a friend. That friend meant everything to me. But it was all a lie from the start.
Anyway, maybe this chapter ended so I could start a new one. Even though I don’t like reading that much.. It’s important to turn the page every now and then.

(Source: spectrum-of-emotion, via this-is-a-wake-up-call)

Warning: This might be personal and too long so it’s totally fine if you scroll passed. I just need to vent it all out.

A few months back, I was complaining about how I always had to cancel or rain-check family/church things for guard comps/band reviews. Now, I’m torn. This Saturday is the Vallejo Band Review. Also, it’s my cousin’s big eighteenth birthday. My sister is heading all the way up here for it plus Mother’s day. She’s only going to be here for the weekend and I’m losing one day of that perfect time. Maybe you think it’s not that big of a deal, Oh she’s just my sister.. yeah… NO. She’s definitely way more than that. She practically raised me. I look at her like my back-up mom. 

Anyway, I’m giving up that time to be with family to spin my rifle. I’m not even good at spinning rifle now. I love it so much and I’ve seriously been trying to practice more and more. I even asked for extra help but honestly.. I’ve completely lost it. It’s devastating. I might as well just have lost my arms. I feel useless. 

Sigh. This might sound bad but, I know they’d do perfectly fine if not better without me. I’m not saying I give up though. I mean I’ll always keep trying but it’s all just frustrating now. 

And theeen! There’s the last day of school. I won’t even be there. I’ll be leaving to SoCal for my cousin’s graduation. Therefor, requiring me to miss the musical that my best friend star’s in, my other best friend’s graduation, and my step sister’s 8th grade promotion. Although, I feel like I wanted to be there for them more than they wanted me to. A characteristic I most-likely got from my mom.. aha.

Well, It feels fantastic to type all this out.. Night.

Ah! As kids, my friends and I would always roleplay Pokemon. I was Plusle. Always and forever. Haha (x

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